Dear Mom,

Tonight I lit a yartzeit candle in your memory. Somehow, almost inexplicably, five years have passed since you died on the 5th of Kislev. Five years have passed in the blink of an eye and in other ways so slowly. I still miss you every day. 

Facebook has this new “feature.” It lets you see previous posts from years past. While most of the time it’s funny to read, I need no reminders of the pain and sadness of your unexpected death. People’s words were generous and it was a reminder that even something as simple as a Facebook post can make a difference. I need to remember to be the one who writes those posts. 

Last weekend, MY SISTER and I went to Minnesota where we remembered you with MY DAD, family, friends and the Mt. Zion community. You would have loved it because you loved a party. So many people love and miss you. It made my heart full and my eyes tear. 

I miss you fiercely, Mom. I love you forever. 

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Blog posts from the past:

Four years-https://rabbisteinman.com/2014/11/26/four-years/

Two years-https://rabbisteinman.com/2012/11/12/730-days/

One year-https://rabbisteinman.com/2011/12/01/5-kislev-is-here/ https://rabbisteinman.com/2011/11/11/one-excruciating-year/

And here’s the dvar Torah I wrote on the occasion of MY MOM’s retirement in May 2010. Some of you might not have known MY MOM. This might give a taste of who she was. https://rabbisteinman.com/2010/05/28/happy-retirement-mommy/